Saturday, April 18, 2015

Love at first sight?

I pose this question to anyone that may stumble across this blog now or anytime in the future. I am super curious to know how people feel about love at first sight. Do you believe that it can happen? Do you think that its lust at first sight? We are human, and by nature we are visual creatures. We are first attracted to someone by the way they look. We then are suckered in by their personality and all the other stuff. I personally believe that there is no time limit on when you know you love someone. I think being the age I am and the things I've gone through in my lifetime that I should be able to tell the difference between love and lust. I've been in some type of love before. The only love that I knew how to give at that moment in time. It wasn't love at first sight w/ the few that I have really loved, more like lust. Now the reason I pose this question is because a funny thing happened to me at the gas station a few weeks back. I ran into someone that had previously attempted to date me, and it didn't end very well between the two of us. The reason being I was getting over a break up w/ a man that I fought with on a daily basis to allow me to be included in his life. I lost all sense of who I was and what I wanted out of life because if I wasn't w/ my kids or at work, I was at home in my bedroom, wondering if this was the day I was going to be a priority in my boyfriends life? I was a pathetic mess of a human and when this man tried to pursue me, I wasn't having it. I even went so far as cussing him out and that was that. Well I ran into him at the gas station on a Saturday morning. I was looking like a freak show w/ my crazy bright colored zig zag capris. I was walking down the isle to the register and I turned around and there he was. I did a quick double take, and INSTANTLY I felt this rush, this wave of warmth and light came over my entire body. I got very nervous, but I was pretty sure he didn't notice. The lady behind the counter started asking me questions about my dead neighbor,(he committed suicide at a little pond off the parkway, but the oddest part was he shot himself in the head w/ a nail gun, and for the first few days police believed it to be a murder) and I just kept thinking to myself that I wanted to not be talking to her that I wanted to pay attention to this man that has me completely spell bound. We did exchange a few pleasantries, I learned he was going to pick up his daughter which was a few hours away and I told him to drive safe. I got into the truck, and looked in the rearview mirror and said to myself that I was going to get that boy! That I was going to make that boy MINE! Later that day I messaged him, telling him it was nice to see him, and we've been together ever since. This man makes me see things in a whole new light. I am lighter in my step, softer in my talk, and for the first time in my adult life, I am looking forward to the future. I am crazy in love with this man. He looks at me like I am the only woman on earth, and he thinks i'm beautiful and he laughs with me and can be super goofy with me. He wants everything I want in life and wants to achieve them with me. We equally feel the same for each other although he would argue that his feelings are much stronger, but I highly doubt that is even possible. I know with out a doubt in my mind and in my heart that this man was created for me. That he and I were meant to be together. I realize now that in previous relationships I was only in love with the thought of being in love. I am a priority, I am loved and treated like so. I am adored, I am truly the happiest and luckiest woman on the planet! I could only dream of such happiness. I smile so much my face hurts and I want to scream from the roof top that I AM IN LOVE! So back to the question at hand.. Do you believe in love at first sight? ~sls

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